Last night's Tarot Reading

Issue: Overturned Hierophant crossed by Oppression
Outcome: Princess of Wands

Issue: I have stored the oppressive voices of tradition in my bones and flesh. I have tried so hard to live outside that oppression, but I have carried it with me all my life. I don’t keep my house up for me, I keep it up for my relatives -- but not really, none of them live with me -- it is my brain that generates the voice of oppression and judgment. It is my brain that has forced order upon my life. It is my brain that wants to be both subversive and respectable. Okay, I am ready to give up the respectability and reclaim my wildness. I am ready to again become "She who makes loud noises in quiet spaces" "She who dances in inappropriate places." I don’t want to listen to the voice of the Hierophant any more.

Outcome: The Princess of wands drags a tiger by the tail into the path of creative freedom. She is on fire, riding the blaze of her self. She wields magic that changes the world. She changes the world that she touches: Her children are allowed to make loud noise, to make a mess, to tow each other down the street using bicycles and skateboards. She tears up her studio to rebuild it in the image of her own dream. She paints her car with poster paints, packs up the kids and all her costurmes and heads out to the desert to indulge in a week of experiential art and madness. Everything changes as I claim who I am.